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| You know how it is in an azn family. you gotta b the best you gotta do your hardest. i'm sick and tied of it. i work so hard and i study my ass off get myself sick and it gets me nowhere NOWHERE!!!I'M SICK OF THIS I'M SICK OF ALL OF IT! i'm tired and i've pushed to the hardest. why can't they just see it and i feel so disappointed. in myself, in other ppl. i just feel like i want to leave this part of me and be another person!!! and another thing, i care too much about everything. i get my hopes up for nothing. but it's no one's fault. it's just my own. i care and think and hope. i hope too much. i hope for a better world. i hope for humanitarian will. I JUST HOPE TOO MUCH! ABOUT EVERYTHING! and i'm so tired of it. what am i going to do. i cry and i work all for nothing. everything's just too far from me.
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if you couldn't tell by now, this is more of a therapy blog where i just rant. not like i feel like this al the time ......i hope | | |
| ok, came back from retreat sunday night...still so tired @_@ the grls couldn't stop talkin for 3 hrs straight from 2-5 in the morning @_@ o well, i couldn't tune them out anyways so partially my fault. i dunno, i learned alot of things on the trip. i guess u could say alot of "personal" things...i dunno, xanga's too public to publish them, but hey, u talk to me, i might tell u lol xPP | | |
| OOOK so b/c myrna is reviving her xanga, and jimmy's not really usin his myspace i guess i'm trying to revive mine this is gonna take a while lol xP any suggestions? | | |
| wow lol, i still can't believe that i'm on xanga lol.  lol  anyways, it's kinda funny in a way. most of the ppl who go to moreau have lately been usin myspace but ppl i still talk to from fcs use xanga...hmmmm, is there something significant bout it?....hmmm, i could think bout it but i'd rather not lol. i've been havin trouble sleepin lately. for some reason i keep gettin nightmares or something.it's hecka weird. like, it was hard enough 2 try and sleep 'round 11 last night. and then i tried wakin up at 7 but i guess i tried too hard so it was almost like i shaked myself outta my sleep. so i worked on my hw for like an hr but felt so sick i basically went back to sleep. then the dreams began @_@ it was ssssssooooo weird, it was a collage of dreams, it didn't connect nor made sense, and i always believed they were real. *sigh* it was all just to weird for me. but i guess mai baby ipod mini made me feel better hehehe  lol, well something else did too but that's another story i guess u'll just have to wait for it lol
writing blogs on xanga is so much easier than on myspace XP | | |
| ooo wow, hahha, i'm actually on xanga..............................y am i here again? lol
*r ppl actually reading this?*
BAI!  | | |
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